Deep Thinking - Where Do I Go?

My urge to escape has been strong over my northern summer - it's an old feeling, and comes around as regular as the summer heat. Like the heat, strong every time. It leads me, sometimes profitably, to ask: What can I clear out of my life? Of course my answer is usually focused on my point of greatest stress: "The demands of others. The needs of my biz. The stack of bills on the table." Just a tad of deep thinking puts that delusion to rest - I created these, I hold these in my mind. I stress me, no-one else. The idea that anyone or anything has any real power over me is a total sell out of all I ideas I use to run my life. Which is the liberation I seek - my life is already alright. Everything I do is right. What's wrong with this life? I look around - it's incredible. How lucky I am. Time to deep think this urge to go away, the urge to find something better… Escape to Where? Better How? It feels good for awhile to say: "I will end doing this. I will leave that." Like new year resolutions that barely last the echoes of their utterance. In their wake - what are you left with? What happens when you end what you believe is stressing you? I still have me. I still have my life. Escape - it's not real. Real is here. Today Now