DeepThinking - Pain Is Selfish | Joy is Universal

All my pain is selfish - I discovered that again today. Per usual, just a glimmer - but a liberating glimmer that I want to underline by writing about it… My hurt, whenever it arises, feels to me like it is because of you. There was an action from your side, a reaction on my side, and I give it a false linear causality: you affected me. It seems so reasonable - so obvious, almost intuitive - I understand why it's taken me a lifetime to glimpse the absurdity of my way of thinking. It's hysterically funny, but in an enjoyable way. I really do laugh out loud every time I get it. I see it as a universal joke - hide the truth in full view of everyone. It reminds me of Alexander's discovery: also in full view of everyone and also not noticed. Why could no-one figure out the head/spine thingy before? Why do people go glassy-eyed when we try to explain it? It's the same with pain: how could I have missed that I cause my own suffering? It's counter-intuitive to know that I am reacting to me, not you. And I am talking know here, as in deep emotional knowing. Call it realization. I wrote previously that my experience of realization is recognizable by the energy I receive for action: the feeling of joy, of love, of compassion and concern arising with no effort, as natural as sunlight. Ego is all about personality and protection. It drains and fatigues me, realization does the opposite. Whenever I realise truth - emotionally - I let go of everything I thought about you. I don't know you - I have no idea what is going on with you! I can only know me, and it's all I ever needed.