M01.22 They Won't Go On…

It happens so often, but every time it is mysterious. Alexander mentioned it:

Directly you get them to the point where they are right, they won't go on -- there is no urge -- they don't want to go on. 
That means that all energy and accomplishment can only be used when it is accompanied by the wrong thing.

That statement has always puzzled me a little, and it happened today in class. She wanted to sing, was pushing down, so I got in the way of that. It's my job. She bought her legs into the picture, we even danced a little. And then: "It feels wonderful, and now I don't want to sing." Huh? I think choice arrived, her real choice: do this or not? The compulsion to do is gone, the decision to act arrives. A deep, clear weather-proof intentionality is one that is awake to itself. Every day. Once I was driven, now I am driving and my journey follows a path that reveals itself only as I move along it. I can imagine driving to the other side of the world, but I can't actually see past the next corner. Right now what I see is this… I am getting fat. It started in Golden Week – too much food. Too much eating. I had no idea how dramatically this affected my ability to do. I am waking up to that now, yet another discovery on the path. My new decision: eat less, give up a meal, be a juice guy for awhile. Something like that. I notice that I lack power to deal with it all at present. Instead I eat. Then I understand. This has been an overwhelming month: launching this website, BCLA, Golden Week. The discovery is this: I need to be attentive. I need to enquire, question, wonder. And I need to rest! This is a perpetual state. This is the state of the true entrepreneur: what now? what do to? how to do? where to do? with whom? for what? Questions, questions, questions. How has your month been? I am wrapping up this month on Success Drivers, Passion, Motivation, and now about to start the month on niches, on others. This month was about us, next month is about them. Are you ready for more?